Patience

yesterday I lost my patience

I got angry--through gritted teeth I muttered some ridiculous threat

as I marched my Xan to the car

I got in the car, and turned to see my sweet boy in tears

crushed by my unkind words

.honestly, I was heartbroken.

I asked forgiveness and assured him of my love

but am still saddened that I can't take back my words, my tone, my actions

the last few months I've been aware, more than ever

of the way my sin affects others

my heart has been grieved 

but I've also been aware more than ever of my Savior

and His unending and undeserved patience towards me

I couldn't earn it if I tried

and I'm finding freedom in living in His forgiveness

His righteousness for my filth

miraculous GRACE